Wouldn't it be good if we did not have mobile phones? Now I truly (ok mb not) understand why GP essays require us to write abt communication and telephones. Tracks u down everywhere. i feel like throwing my phone away, except that it is an expensive and good phone, when placed in use the way I like it.

Hi eveyrone,
I m very excited over the upcoming weekend! My brother has done a lot for me, from inviting our family and friends, to helping me settle decoration. Siu siu and her khakis, kakis i mean, cj, kc, sj, liang yuan, for decorating! this is so exciting!

my mum has been relaly generous too. my dad too. feel kinda bad abt indulging myself. but i hope everyone has a good time, including my parents too.

i really din plan much for this party. so i m glad i m a group of friends (and my brother and mother) to plan for me.

c u tmr!

Hi everyone
sorry to keep you waiting. I don't visit my own blog often because I nvr post anything! but I decided to post today because today is monday! haha. why m i so excited over a monday?

read my last post. it was week 6 then. guess what, today marks the start of week 10 of internship! if mine was a 10 week internship, this would be my last week. but too bad, i signed up for a 15 week one. so there goes. I wish I could stop after my tenth week. any ideas?

and to all who tagged, thanks! nice to see ppl coming to my blog :)

the past month has been ok. I m now working at upper serangoon shopping centre at my client's place. my colleague picks me to work, so i can slp in later.

i just spoke to a korean guy on the phone. directed him to my manager. usually ppl who call my client are angry ppl chasing for payment. luckily this guy was not one angry man haha

6 more weeks to the end of internship. and i haven't prepared anything for my spain triP! i wish the timeline could be less contradicting. i want to travel in europe till feb, but koko is getting married on jan 27. how how? i could come back 1 week later and travel europe with sj. or i could come back 1 week earlier and attend his wedding. but i shd be back for cny. can see uncle dell and joan?

koko, can get married later anot? haha i can tell mama change booking for u :)

k so during work, i m usually on msn with siu, from morning till evening. wonder how come we have so much to talk? i also dunno how come

winglam has started and ended her intership with watsons, but i m barely near the end! gah gah. she is now temping at american club, preparing for GST hike! haha my mum is like " hurry up go buy ur stuff, it is great singapore sale. and buy before gst hike!" that is quite true actually. k i shall go shopping again some weekend before GSS officially closes.

This saturday is my birthday party. Pls sms or email me for details. I m pretty excited abt it. and I m very fortunate to have a generous mum, a helpful brother, and an enthusiastic dad, and my suportive relatives and frens. thank you in advance! and i got my first birthday present last night. let me be the queen till july comes alright?

hang in there everyone. Monday is almost over.
lola banana

6 weeks of my internship down. 9 more weeks to go

i will be starting my spanish class soon. before that, will have a meal with lindy and gang. not everyone gets a second chance, and i m glad some are willing to grant me this opportunity.

i haven't prepared anything for my spanish trip yet. besides visa, accomodation and air tickets, what else do i need? the sch over at the other side has yet to contact us. i m waiting to find out when does sch start so i can decide on a definite date i will be reaching there and fill in the exact date on my visa application and book my ticket.

to all who are having internship, i hope u r surviving well. to my best frens, not bad, we have survived 6 weeks. 9 more to go! Whippee!!

to all who are having holidays, enjoy your holidays. even though uni life the summer break is longer, next time when we start working, it is a long stretch of 40 years. no holidays to look forward to unless u take the time out to plan.

to all who are in camp ehi-passiko, jiayou and i hope more ppl will have fun. forgot to say 2 sundays again, best frens and i went for a jap buffet and one of the waitresses recognised me. she remembered me from sbm haha. k have fun and hope u can create more fun for participants!

k week 7, here we come!

hi everyone

i have been working OT over the past few days. and today i m glad to be able to come home on time (slightly later) and have dinner at home. this case is really interesting and prob memorable. haha my dad is forever listening to me complain, while my mum only gets to see me on weekends now. i m now nearing the end of my 5th week of internship. 1/3 way down, 2/3s to go :)

so how has everyone been? i dunno who still reads my blog, but these entries are meant for my loyal avid readers. i have been reading abt gg to spain, abt spanish classes, abt applying for visas. many things to do man. i hope i can take unpaid leave to settle all these. embassies work from like 9 to 1pm?!? i want to be an ambassador as well!!! haha

my bro is playing wii next to me now. his exams are coming soon. he got his continuous assessment. not too bad, can be improved. let's hope he works hard for his exams to pull his grades.

hi guys
today i was posted to changi. the feeling of being posted out is quite exciting. but u know when u get used to there, the novelty wears off and u start reverting back to your old self. worse is have to work OT in office after being chased out of the offices premises.

hope i don't have to work OT. pls. but today, after returning to office at 7.15pm, i realise that the office was probably livelier than at 830 in the morning. everyone works OT! and i took tazi back with one of the IT busienss solutions person. he worked in san francisco before. and i think he prefers there. uncle dell, if my company posts me overseas next time, can i request for san francisco and stay at your place?

k tmr another day at changi. at least till thursday. think it can last me till next week? even after next week is gone, i would only have survived 6 weeks of internship. not even halfway of my 15 weeks internship. but hey, if time passes fast, why not?

at the request of my ardent fren, as well as my most reliable companion in such times, i have decided to blog. tmr, friday, marks the end of the fourth week of my internship. and i would not have come so far without the support of all my family and friends. many many things to update about.

WORK
i dunno if these 4 weeks have passed slowly or quickly. but i do know i have another 11 weeks to go. why on earth did i go for 15 weeks internship when i need to satisfy only 10? i wish they would fire me after 10 weeks. give me time to plan for my exchange and learn my spanish, book my tickets, apply for visa etc

and i really would not have got through all these times without andy, who is my co-slacker at work, without siu, who is ever-ready to chat with me, because i have no one to chat with in the office except my online siu, without kc, who was there to listen to me banter even though he ends work at like 1 or 2 am - uncle, u r only an intern!!! and of cos without sj, having to rush to everywhere from the outskirts mandai


EXCHANGE
i will most probably be going to spain for the next half of the year for my exchange program. have to stop my piano class, pick up spanish classes. sj is gg to france. it is pretty exciting, having to search up the airlines, accomodation, plans to travel within europe, SOCCER! but yesterday i started having those home-sick kinda feelings. my brother won't be there for me to scold. my mum would want her to call her every night. my father won't be there to eat dinner with me. my grandmother won't be up in the morning to send me to work. do u know every morning when i go to work, my grandma is always sitting in the living room, asking if i took my water bottle, umbrella, keys, phone, wallet etc haha she is real solid.

END OF MAY
end of may is coming. plenty of things planned with my best frens. everyone has been hard at internship. and it is good experience i guess. we can't depend on each other forever. we can share our experiences when we meet. and see the world. if our world is confined to the offices in shenton way. i think i m a restless kid. i can't sit still in office. i shd be a california fitness trainer. those who get paid for spending lunches with office ladies doing aerobics.

today my colleague said she was going on study leave and i told her to enjoy studying as it is more fun than work. that sentence of mine sparked off a conversation between us. let me give u a brief background first. my fept moved down from the 16th floor to the 10th floor on wed. my new desk now faces out of the manager's building, so it is not that dark and gloomy. today i saw the torrential rain. next time, i want a little window on the roof where i can see stars and watch the rain drop. anyway, before we moved down, this colleague shared a table with me. we were pretty hostile, but she started offering me tidbits. think we got to know each other as i had to help her.

so now we moved down and she is sitting far away from me. but we started chatting and she was advising me on what my first job shd be. she is studying for her cpa right now. more importantly, she said to do sth we enjoy. i feel like saying, but i dunno what i enjoy doing! she was like, when young, don't confine your choices to big 4 (simply because u r an accountancy student) i think it is very true. we always work hard to get into a dream firm. but the job turns out to be less than ideal.

lastly, uncle dell! these is an american in my dept. and he reminds me so much like you!!! he talks candidly. he acknowledges my presence (and not ill-treat interns like me) no i m not saying i m ill-treated. i have the privilege of leaving ON TIME. and he is forever disturbing us at work. haha he will come and steal food. and he is just really nice la. he is going back to new york soon i think. think he is based in washington, but he has spent his years in many places. cool right? just like u,uncle dell!

hello everyone
2 weeks of internship have passed and 13 more to go. everyone tells me not to start counting down so soon, but since i have started counting down, might as well stick with it.

work is not bad. i just wish they would give me more work to do. time passes much faster. but i m worried if i keep asking for work, they will find me irritating. already loads of work to clear and there is this bugger pestering for more work. need to explain, cos this bugger probably knows nothing abt what to do. i don't mind doing sai kang, data entry, anything. maybe i m doing that right now and not enjoying it, but i don't realise it is sai kang.

anyway i have an action packed week coming up. this week is mother's day and my daddy's birthday. and my best frens and i have embarked on a journey to keep fit by visiting the gym. thanks everyone, from coming from wherever u r to the gym. i think i m having this internship pretty slack. pls don't give me ot, but give me sufficient work to do, for time to pass faster.

kc's birthday coming up as well. so if u r reading this, remember to ask when his birthday is and give him a tau pok. haha.

later today, i think i m going to tell my piano teacher i want to stop my classes. i havebeen procrastinating. i look forward to work and travel usa and other overseas travel.

k till then byebye

alright. i m very sian now. i still have 14 weeks of internship to go. and my results aren't fantastic this year. crap. that makes me feel realy guilty. i may take my results really harshly, but i guess that is the way i was brought up. the emphasis placed on grades especially when others have expectations of u and u expect urself to meet expectations. and when u don't, u end up like me. i may not be facing pressure from studies, but maybe i impose on myself. crap.

i need a more positive mindset to survive through the internship.

first week of internship. i do have work to do. and i have andy and victoria. i hope i will be occupied, so time will pass faster. i hope the office of the future allows us to bring work home. more importantly, i need to buck up on my studies. maybe i shd revert back to the selfish me. and spend my days studying away. next semester i m taking is probably modified term. have to work doubly hard for the modified term.

today is my first day of my internship at pwc. counting down 15 weeks. sj, kc and siu started today. 15 weeks. 102 days to the end. we had a full day of orientation. then i went to my dept - advisory (crisis management). probably start proper work tmr. luckily i have andy in the same dept as me. and i miss all my best frens and sj. i think siu has plenty to tell me abt her work cos she wants to meet for dinner tmr (we are doing gym tmr) and tell me abt it. sj has free lunch. i have t fight the crowds during lunch hours. i don't mind having lunch at 2. beat the queue. come back at 3, work for another 2.5 hours. after lunch is always so difficult to stay awake

k just a short post. tmr gym with my best frens!

Hi everyone,

this week has been a really enjoyable and relaxing week, after the exams :) hang in there, for those who still have exams! I am starting my internship like on monday, so that is not much thought for comfort.

before i begin, i just want to wish pui san and kenny a happy happy 21st birthday!

so saturday: corp paper - literally stick our necks out to be chopped by prof. his final words before the exam started were "GOOD LUCK". ironic. after which, we kinda hung ard in sch, my bro met us in sch, went to genting to book our "best frens" trip and went to peach garden to eat dinner with my EF group.

sunday: hang ard at home, piano, hang ard.

monday and tuesday: more hanging ard

wed - friday: went to genting! whee! the photos u see are our genting photos. i laughed and gulped so much air i think i was super tired that night after visiting the amusement park. so fun!

saturday: hang ard. i went to recee pwc, collect my FT assignments, met sj and lion, then went for kenny's 21st birthday party. it has been a long while since i met my jc class mates. and boy was i glad to meet them. trust me, the best days of my life, the best frens i can ever get. i don't have to put on a facade in front of them. and it takes so quickly to warm up to them and start talking to them. when i arrived, i was the only gal, so i sat away from the rest. but my classmates started settling around me and i really felt the warmth and the friendships with them that they probably cherish a lot. many of us are flying off. matthew wants to do dentistry and has arranged to study spanish with me, kenny is flying to uk (and has invited me to visit), donald's hair is fast becoming like jay chou's, sam is gg japan for exchange, meng qi brought her russian phd bf, zhengxian is going to caltech, mr alvin loke is gg to upenn, liyang and mq gg to nus. all are born to do big stuff man

went with my mama to the tailor after that. she is hardworking, patient, but i believe she charges exorbitant prices for her workmanship :) i think i m getting lots of clothes after today.

night night!

Hello everyone. today is friday the 13. wow. tmr afternoon paper, and in sj's words, no more studying for the next 8 months! i decided to blog cos i don't see new posts on the blogs i usually visit. break from corp reporting anyway.

tmr's paper is corp reporting. tells u how to report ur financial statements. it is kinda complex, like all the info can be strewn at you everywhere and it is up to u to sieve out the info, decide what to do. anyway, i think most financial statements are wrong anyway. i m sure someone used the wrong numbers or applied the wrong method somewhere. anywhere, my friends have named the subject as corp-se reporting. haha

m at home today. rare, so i think my grandmama is happy. she is really cute. my mum says my grandmama is getting fatter. that is good, if u can get fat in ur old age. instead of skinny and frail and getting osteoporosis.

speaking of frail and skinny, that day i went to the market and saw a dog. think he is a babay dog akak a puppy. but he is so skinny he looks genetically wrong. like u r worried the baby stroller will run over his skinny paws.

ok back to corpse. i m looking forward to post-exam. in 25 hours time. i have a list of to-do things. but i think i won't have time to finish them. internship starts after 1 week of break. we have all sold our souls for this summer for a miserly $600 a month. but that could be the pay some of our aunties and uncles in sch get! i shd stop complaining. but i would prefer to have some time in my summer. to learn to wash and iron my clothes and to cook.

Hi guys, 1 paper down, 1 more to go. sj has 2 more. siu has 3 more. think kc has 2 more. jiayou jiayou hang in there.

hwee dreamt i was piloting a F15 fighter plane. i think that is really cool. me driving an aeroplane. the panoramic view must have been fantastic.

anyway, my eyes have these veins. think have eye infection. i think the library is a reeding place for germs. everyone sneezes into the air + the library is now open 24/7 means no time for library to ventilate etc. plus i m starting to cough. haha need to get out into the sun? u bet. everyone shd just switch off the air con man.

anyway, i think i have been pretty nasty this semester. and i think i want to think happy positive thoughts from now on. I hope i won't be petty over 2 marks, though that is tough for a miserly accountant like me.

ok update: i m starting internship at pwc, sj at the zoo (relaxing ah - i want free ticket to the zoo and close up with the elephant), siu at foo kon tan-grant thorton, kc at d&t (all my lunch buddies), viny with me at pwc. internship does not sound really exciting. neither does work. anything interesting/exciting job? like i don't know. bus driver, postman, politician? good pay anyway. but i can't speak well. mb civil servent like koko haha

kk apparently there is some nice soccer tonight. but i m not watching that. i m watchin date with a vampire with my brother. cool right? haha somehow, that is one of my fav shows :) all-time fav.

Tmr is FT dineout. I will probably fail, because I am too sick to bother about how to hold the fork and knife.

Thurs is video interview. I m not in the mood to answer questions about my future and what I intend to do, when it is all so hazy (to me) right now.

I am sick.
My throat is sore, i keep sneezing, my ears are blocked. I think I am heaty and I have a lot of 'wind'. My bones are aching. I am old. I am going to visit the doctor in school today and see what he can give me.

My hair is long.
either tie it up for FT or cut it (no).

I wish my body was in a better condition for me to study better for my exams. I am having restless sleep and dreams every night.

hi everyone
this week is kinda stress week. but not exactly like last week. time to start preparing for exams.

got back corp results last week. disappointing. although i keep saying it is 8%. and 8% of one of the 40 modules i have to take in smu. makes it sound so much better. so friends, if u r upset over corp, just take the analogy i used above. 0.08/42=negligible. don't let it pull us down and let's study even harder for final exams

ef exam this friday. met lucas yesterday. he is a funny guy la. just don't get too formal or serious with him. my TAs this semester have helped me quite a bit. from andri to lucas. the CAt TA also help a bit. haven't seen felicia.

my brother has gone vegetarian. and he has grown skinnier. i don't have his determination and i admire him for it. when he says he will go veg for 2 months, he will do it. he is starting school this friday. i feel excited for him :)

hi everyone,
welcome to a bright sunday morning. this sunday morning feels different, probably because my brother is not around. i know we kinda miss him in his absence. bet he will be exhausted when he returns home from his retreat in malacca later this evening.

daddy is sick. mama is real nice. grandma is sick.

somehow i managed to survive last week. final week of school, with a major exam at the end of the week. things just happen don't they? although i would do better if i had taken portfolio management before ef, let's hope ef will make portfolio management a whole lot easier.

was back to the sch library on a saturday afternoon. saturday afternoons are nice. and i think what i wear affects my mood. or does my mood affect what i wear? generally bright colours make u feel happy. and bright colours make ppl who are looking at u happy too. i m going to get more bright colour clothes :)

then having piano lesson this evening. i wish piano would be the relaxing activity it used to be. it still is, just that i m rarely at home to open the piano without delaying my grandma's sleeptime.

i realise every afternoon i m usually in the aircon room or in the aircon library. so when i m at home w/o aircon, i have headache/ i need to start running and sweat and get used to the heat.

and 14 weeks of internship looming. not looking forward to that. u know when i was admitted into jc, wing lam and i actually took a day in the holidays to learn how to get to our school from bus and mrt. it was really funny but fun. it is one of those memorable activities we did :) mb i shd take a day off my one week break to learn how to get to my workplace, though i think it is close to my previous workplace.

and exchange results out this friday. do or die. ef exams this friday too. piano lesson this friday. busy friday.

i just watched ninja turtle. and i enjoyed the show, although it is no longer the childish cartoon we used to watch on the box called tv. and one moment that impacted me was when splinter was talking to raphael. Warning: if u do not want me to spoil the movie for you, pls skip the next few paragraphs.

Splinter told Raphael that he liked to take the whole world upon himself. he was enforcing law and order for new york city when splinter forbade the 4 ninjas to fight crimes individually. this sort of struck me as i felt i could identify with raphael. sometimes, expectations of us are not quite high as we would like ourselves to think or to take on.

this thing about expectations. is it good to have high expectations? of what? i used to think i have high expectations. so i tell myself not to have expectations. not to compare as that will only lead to more misery. when i subconsciously expected something and my expectation was not met, i just try to forget it and tell myself i will not remember it soon after and move on. To me, even if people don't tell me explicitly their expectations, i think i would still try to meet expectations i think that exist.

sometimes when i think i have done enough, i end up feeling i could do so much more. m i such a useless bum? or is it unreasonable to expect so much of one person? when i look around and see so many ppl who are probably 1000 times busier than i m, i start seeing how insignificant i m. this feeling is unbearable, when u have been told u can do great things (everyone one of us can do great things) and u start forming expectations. then u try to lower ur expectations and u realise it is still not enough. tell me what to do man.

i think everyone is tired out by exams, stress, unreasonable ppl like me. i would like to think that having no expectations of someone would mean that that person does not really matter to you. anyhow is good enough. but when u expect ur friends to be loyal to you, when u expect ur family to support u, when u expect to be able to convince ur family before you set out to convince ur friends and then strangers.

i haven't hugged my mum in a long time. somehow, ppl get detached from one another, both emotionally and physically. i m glad i still hug at least one person in sch - siu2. i used to hug my school mates in jc. and life tends to be so much simpler when u r younger.

i m like a big baby. i doubt i will ever grow up. i think i will continue to be sheltered and when i experience some realities of life, i will retract and return to my shelter. did i mention i m like a mimosa, retracting very easily? think raphael and mimosa - maybe i will make a pink ninja turtle.

profs sure like to spring presentations upon us nowadays. just when i thought i could have one presentation each on the next 2 weeks, suddenly i have 2 presentations lined up for me this coming week! and now i m still in my presentation clothes from this morning. grr. stress.

and here i m, in the library, trying to figure out how the financial numbers in the annual reports add up. exciting huh? ppl do this in 6 hours. we r doing this in 6 weeks.
grrr

Hello everyone, today's post is regarding my meeting with prof menkhoff this afternoon. I did not have class today, but I went back to finish my CAT assignment and meet prof. of course, i am always apprehensive abt meeting profs. but i guess the first time is always the hardest.

we kinda talked abt what i had learnt through LTM. let me tell everyone now. I learnt more about myself and about leadership. maybe not so much from theory, but from the experiences we had.

i had the privilege of working with a very ambitious and fun group. They decided to hold a photo exhibition on migrant workers in singapore and brought arts into the heartlands. they were fortunate to have a minister to come visit our exhibition. this had brought along media and we are allproud of them :)

more importantly, i guess i saw how the group had transferred, from a group of individuals to a team whose team members are knitted and dependent on one another. no one can work alone, though some of do work better alone.

as for my personal development, when i was enrolled in LTB, i guess everyone was fighting for air time to speak up and be the leader. but now that u r a "mentor", i decided to take a step back. i tend to be domineering at times - ppl ard me would know me well. but i don't always know what i want. i don't have the end picture in mind. just go with the flow i tell myself.

another thing is i m too task-oriented. guess such experiences are good for us to reflect and identify such flaws in us. otherwise, we always tink we are perfect and think positively of ourselves. this is not a pessimistic post. just some reflections after the LTM course is over.

what is more pessisimistic is the corp reporting project. my team mates are really co-operative and hardworking i must say. i jsut want to move along and finish the project and present and get it over and done with.

as for CAT. my best friend came to my help today when i totally needed it. i was quite upset this morning when i tried but i was at my wits' end. assignment was due at 5pm and at 9am i was still doodling. thankfully, mr. she came to my aid. best friends come to your help when u need them most, and not dump u aside. thanks kc!

and i m presenting EF presentation today. I must thank the group of 4 year 4s who adopted sj and me into their group. this module is kinda like an advanced finance course. and sj and i are not quite done with our basic finance! haha. but it is an interesting module - entreprenuerial finance - kinda differ from normal finance. the project is pretty tedious but i m thankful for my group. i will have to pay this forward when i reach year 4

back to the meeting with prof. we did not talk much abt work. like he said, he is supposed to mentor me when he does not know much abt me! so he asked me about my family. and we started talking abt going to spain. he was saying about 1 of these 3 off-shore islands in the mediterainian (can't spell) sea that used to be occupied by germans. really interesting. and he offered to be my referee if i need any. i really appreciate profs like him ard, who are people oriented. there is plenty of me to learn, not just from books, but from the way one behaves.