alright. i m very sian now. i still have 14 weeks of internship to go. and my results aren't fantastic this year. crap. that makes me feel realy guilty. i may take my results really harshly, but i guess that is the way i was brought up. the emphasis placed on grades especially when others have expectations of u and u expect urself to meet expectations. and when u don't, u end up like me. i may not be facing pressure from studies, but maybe i impose on myself. crap.

i need a more positive mindset to survive through the internship.

first week of internship. i do have work to do. and i have andy and victoria. i hope i will be occupied, so time will pass faster. i hope the office of the future allows us to bring work home. more importantly, i need to buck up on my studies. maybe i shd revert back to the selfish me. and spend my days studying away. next semester i m taking is probably modified term. have to work doubly hard for the modified term.