my house is in a mess. mess of clothes, mess of books, mess of people, mess of feelings. but i m not even home most of the time! think today i will get down to clearing my stuff, doing my Creative Thinking journal and go for sx's bday party.

1 more week of sch, then study break, then exams. can't wait for exams to be over. really wanna resume my smubs. so many activities to do.

as for my family, i dunno how to motivate my brother. seriously. he must be good in sth. why not channel his energy to studies? jus for the next half a year to go. if he does not, then we have to bear all the nonsese taht arise because of us who are concerned abt his studies. everyone is concerned. yet everyone displa their concern different and may end up hurting each other.

and bgs meeting. enough of bgs pls. i m sick of sch. sick ofbgs. life does not revolve ard bgs. it is one of the 40+ modules i have to take at smu. i dowanna think anymore. i need some peace and quiet in my life. pls. return me the quietness in my house.

i know i cuold be doing sth abt it, rather than whining. that is why i stay in sch to study. but then this is my house! i have to be awakened by the most unpleasant voice in the morning, fussing over me and my breakfast.

last night, i jus felt an annoymous wave of anger in me. i was not even allowed abreath or a sigh in my house. everyone is jus preoccuppied in their little cocoons. we need to open up. and spread the love. in our lives. wat is life abt really?