Hell0o everyone
I was at home for the most of today. despite that, it was probably one of the most traumatic days. haha no i m not goign to commit suicide. I m goign to count my blessings, in wing lam's words.

today, i decided to go through all the cards and post cards i have received all this while. there were birthday cards, christmas cards, new year cards, cards from long lost frens. do u believe in karma and affinity? i do. probably in the most superficial sense.

winglam, mei yin and hui yi will never miss my birthday cards. christmas, new year once in a while haha. but i m really thankful for your friendships. whether you are reading this or not.

and there are those really funny cards from siu siu. siu, remember my 20th birthday birthday card? i opened it and i jus burst out laughing. u drew a big smiley face. and sometimes that is all one needs to break into a smile.

had a good time with siu and kc yesterday. somehow we are all growing up too fast. omg. sound so cliched ay? if only we had known one another since 5 years old. then again, believe in affinity?

then there were all the love letters from the sariputta girls. thank you girls. lindy, i must say you are really sensible and mature, opposite of me. i m jus wilful and naggy. jiayi, thanks for your pen. sel and mich, 3 of us being the oldest, thanks for showering care and concern among 5 of us.

and there are those really precious postcards from all over the world from tim, puee and john. i really respect you guys and thank you for remembering me no matter which corner of the world u r at. i have cards from pisa, french alps, amsterdam. could one of u pass me an address so i could send u some merlion cards as well? haha.

and there are cards from songjie as well. the stylo birthday card and all the cards with funny photos of you.

and these is this card from qiantai. think after we graduated from JC.
and this card from ying zi. my long lost primary sch, ex-neighbour, who has moved to sengkang.

i really liked the birthday card from USA. it has TLTH, joan, uncle dell, speedy, kima and kipa's signatures and well wishes.

oh yes, uncle dell, i have the card that came with elmo. ur handwriting is real big and cursive :)
elmo has a new partner btw, jus like speedy sir stamford raffles has merlion mona lisa. elmo's partner is stitch the elvis. show u when u get back online from ur road travels or when u get to nice and cool sg.

btw, sg has been flooded and raining to the extent that thomson road outside my house is flooded. perfect for u!

and there is this card from hong li and kaiyi for being a GL in their camp. really sweet of them.

these are all memories. i want to get a box and store them and look at them every month and count my blessings on my blog everytime i read them.

i have gotten to be really snap at ppl. snap at my frens, my parents. i finally got a taste of my medicine when my mum reprimanded me. i guess there is nothing to be shameful abt. i may have been right. but the way i talked to my mum was disrespectful. and i guess i m still a 6-year old inside. i need to grow up quick.

i apologise if i always thank the same few ppl. these are the ppl who have stood by me all these while. with so many ppl behind me in whatever i do, why do i keep wanting more? I used to think that i will be happy once i get something. when i do get it, i start being unhappy again. i gues buddhism is right. sometimes, getting what u want may bring u more challenges than happiness. i m worried and scared that i will just get caught up in the rat race. and i start seeing this in myself. i ask myself why can't i just think of everyone as being nice and all, even if i know they are not. why can't i just be as enthusiastic abt everything as i used to be? i just see this sloppy self in front of me.

SO. i have to snap out of everything i m in now. and try to be more upbeat abt everything. i believe everything starts from me. i choose to procrastinate. let's hope this starts in everyone and there will be spill over effect and spill over to me.

and accourding to a health report, certain activities will prolong ur life while others will shorten ur life. one of the latter is when u think and live everyday like it is ur last. this is most damaging on ur life.

and HAPPY 21st birthday to Ying Zhi, Yi Han, Qian Tai, Renji. Matthew, urs is coming up next!